Monday, 29 June 2009

Modesty

Playing the violin requires an immense modesty.

I've lived a life in which being modest has never been appreciated or nurtured.

The initial context of this is... How do I enjoy each phase of my violin practice.
- Bowing warm up.
- Fingering warm up.
- Scales.
- Studies.
- Exploration.
- ...

I HATE IT WHEN OTHER PEOPLE LISTEN TO ME. I HATE IT WHEN THERE ARE OTHERS LISTENING TO MY VIOLIN WHEN I AM PLAYING BAD. I feel like i want to prove that I am better. I get tense. I get angry.

Perfectionist. Performance. Exhibitionist.


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