Enjoyment & Happiness

I'm still completely boggled by the question 'do i enjoy playing the violin or do I enjoy playing the violin better?'

Another interesting observation is that I don't remember doing my A.Mus.A, one of the greatest achievements of my life. Strange...

Also. Met some old music friends that now perform professionally with the SSO and MSO. Following their ideas about playing i realised that I am incredibly lucky to have a career that allows me to do music on the side. Doing IT and Violin is great. I want to hold onto that for ever.

Tonight i did a few hours of scales and studies with a metronome. all great stuff! really enjoy my 'calendar scales' system :) Tomorrow....

Finished the day thinking about how it's difficult to enjoy the moment. It's difficult not to be a performer and want the praises of others. It difficult being curious rather than competitive. It's difficult being an individual. It's difficult enjoying life and being happy.

Perhaps the final happiness is WORK and LOVE.

My brother and I came to the following conclusion: It doesn't make a difference what you choose to do with your life; the trick is sticking to it.